I am back from sleep to write this out... i dont feel sleepy or even if i do my thoughts wont let me sleep.. I've been telling Smruthi for 2 days now that something is not right and she said i was getting tensed... to her it is paranoia of a hyper person ( thats me) but to me its something that opens up a wound so old yet so fresh...
Its not unlike final destination, where the guy/girl can foresee things... I still remember vividly, as though it were happening in front of me right now.. that afternoon at school, i think it was the 12th standard.. and after school we had these special tests... the benches in my class were arranged like an exam hall.. and my friend's was in the corridor, right next to the door.. she was there already but her head was bent down.. i thought she was praying and so i let her be.. but after a minute me and another friend realized that she was kinda crying.. and i kinda knew why.. so i ask her what it is, if it is THAT particular reason that i thought it was.. but she refused to say... a week or so later it all blew up on my face.. and the reason? the one that i thought it was... she just never told...
This has happened a few times after that incident as well.. and every time this 'I sense something wrong' comes to my head, i dread, i fear and almost die of worry.. because i know that there is something amiss and people are tryin to hold it back for reasons known to themselves. But i can sense it dammit! i can sense loss and problem brewing... i might react very wierdly, i might cry, i might get mad but i know how to handle cos i always have known...
Pray tell me what it is.. i might be stupid or too immature but i can deal with it.. just dont let those signs come again... they scare me... they make me feel lonely... they... drive me mad. Pray tell me...
Its not unlike final destination, where the guy/girl can foresee things... I still remember vividly, as though it were happening in front of me right now.. that afternoon at school, i think it was the 12th standard.. and after school we had these special tests... the benches in my class were arranged like an exam hall.. and my friend's was in the corridor, right next to the door.. she was there already but her head was bent down.. i thought she was praying and so i let her be.. but after a minute me and another friend realized that she was kinda crying.. and i kinda knew why.. so i ask her what it is, if it is THAT particular reason that i thought it was.. but she refused to say... a week or so later it all blew up on my face.. and the reason? the one that i thought it was... she just never told...
This has happened a few times after that incident as well.. and every time this 'I sense something wrong' comes to my head, i dread, i fear and almost die of worry.. because i know that there is something amiss and people are tryin to hold it back for reasons known to themselves. But i can sense it dammit! i can sense loss and problem brewing... i might react very wierdly, i might cry, i might get mad but i know how to handle cos i always have known...
Pray tell me what it is.. i might be stupid or too immature but i can deal with it.. just dont let those signs come again... they scare me... they make me feel lonely... they... drive me mad. Pray tell me...
Signs!!They give me jitters.Right when you are in a party with so much fun around.Something strikes you and an unreasonable feeling of fright envelopes.You know something bad is gonna happen and it does.Had experienced this during the last newyear eve party and tragedy stuck.
ReplyDeleteOnly if we can decipher all signs and prepare ourself for the impending strike things would be much easier.Hmm..A reason I can relate to harry potter and his burning scar.
Sometimes people hold it back because they don't want you to feel the same pain as they do.
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