random realisations 3

how easy is it forget something? or someone? how many times have you forgotten to wish your best friend on her anniversary? or how many times have you left the door unlatched on your way to work? well, this is 'you'... it is easy to throw back a reply cos you know its you.. like you know yourself.. for example - i know i dont easily forget the smallest details , such as car numbers, birthdays, blah blah... i wish people and stuff... yeah maybe i forget stuff about home and all that but that i know i can work on..

Now let us flip to the other side of the coin. how does it feel to be forgotten? have you ever been forgotten? not missed , but forgotten!how does it feel to be the heart of the moment 'once upon a time' and now to be forgotten along with the tapestry and curtains? how bad does it feel to be not asked about something? how does it feel when plans are made in front of u and u are just a listener to these plans?

My heart aches, because i was once the life here.. in this crowd...i was their favourite kid. If i ever said an 'oh no i cant make it' it wouldnt be taken for an answer. i would be cajoled to come... i would be asked for suggestions... now it has all turned the other way around... today a msg would ask the question and a no from me would yield a reply as big as 'k'... hmmm it stings... i hate to be forgotten during lunch times, because when i walk in lunch is already about to finish and they brush away allegations with a simple ' dont complain... i will bash your face... you were not around'.... i feel like laughing actually... hmmm

Maybe at some point in life i forgot many people and thats just coming back to me.... yeah i did... i forgot sheetu for a jolly long year when i wanted to sort my mess.... i had to be reminded that she existed... but ever since i have never let her feel forgotten or even second in life... i told smruthi that i had forgotten her in my rush after college and i have been making up for it... deepak is still to be told and so is sara...

The truth is i havent forgotten ANY of u... i remember u in every waking situation.... i cry at times thinking of better times which i havent forgotten... I remember my quarters, driving around with akx and endless fun moments with them..the 'ei's and the 'ya's... i remember BSA, i remember Annie mam, i remember MAPSA... i remember buying chocolates for dee every morning on my way to school.... I am putting it all here now cos i know someday you will all read it and that day maybe you will remember me....

I am waiting for some love.... for the circle of life to turn towards me... hmmm

Signing off
Me